So far, so good. I went in today for my second ultrasound of the cycle (another $350) and was informed that each ovary has one mature follicle — 17.7mm on my left and 19.4mm on my right. My lining is 9.6mm, which is good I guess (they didn’t tell me anything was abnormal with the lining) and DH and I are set to stab me (ahem, take my first “trigger shot”) tonight and then we’re instructed to have TI twice this week. And then we have our TWW (two week wait) and see if it worked – if not, we repeat the same thing again.

I wasn’t thrilled with my doctor’s bedside manner today – I understand he is much more engaged with patients who require IVF and my current treatment is fairly basic, but I’m paying $350 per appointment, it would be nice if I didn’t feel like I was being a nuisance asking questions. Apparently I should have taken better notes during the consultation (which was almost a year ago because I took some time before I decided to get started) — or I’m asking too many questions in general and should just do what they tell me to and not really know what is going on. I like to understand things, esp. medical-related things happening to my body, so I do ask a lot of questions.

If this cycle works, great. I’ll be freaked out in the way anyone is when they realize they’re about to bring another life into the world and there will be a nine month wait when they blow up like a watermelon leading up to the most painful experience in a normal human’s life (other than, you know, death, or, as my husband reminds me, stepping on a lego) — but also, ecstatic. And odds are still very slim right now… even super healthy women at my age only have a 20% or so chance of getting pregnant each month.

There’s also a slim chance that I’ll get pregnant with twins. I asked the doctor if the trigger should might make both of the mature follicles release eggs and he looked at me like I’m dumb and said “might? It will.” Now, just because two mature eggs release does not mean both (or either) will be fertilized and even if they are there are a host of things that could go wrong which is why it’s unlikely in any given cycle I’ll get pregnant at all. I’m saying this based on Internet research, not based on what my doctor told me, because he didn’t seem interested in explaining much of anything to me.

If it works, it works. I guess the TWW starts on the 13, with testing starting on the 27. That’s all we do at this point… trigger… TI… x2… then wait. It’s basically like normal reproduction with the added help of ensuring mature follicles and knowing when you’re ovulating.

Please send baby dust our way.