CD 13, Early Trigger Shot, and the TWW

In two weeks, I’ll know if this cycle amounted to anything other than $1000 in medical bills. I have a strange feeling in my heart this cycle is going to work (no reason other than I will be testing on my birthday and I want that to be my birthday gift) — but I’ve also been reading a lot about the super-high rate of miscarriages amongst women with PCOS and I’m now more concerned about getting pregnant and losing the pregnancy than getting pregnant to begin with.

There’s a little logic behind this. Not much. But my logic is that I seem to be a prime candidate for infertility treatments. Unless I have more tubal issues than we think, my only issue / reason for not getting pregnant, as far as we know thus far, is not ovulating. Well, with the Femera I’m producing 1-2 mature follicles each cycle — and they seem to be releasing properly when using a trigger shot to force ovulation. Assuming nothing else is wrong, we have a 15-20% chance each cycle of conceiving using this method.

Yet, the chances for women with PCOS to miscarry are 30%-50%, or even higher, according to numerous studies. I’m quite concerned that even if I can get pregnant, I won’t be able to stay pregnant. This is all personal hypothesis at this point — my eggs could be of horrible quality, or my tubes could be blocked, or something else could be wrong making it impossible for me to even get pregnant. Or, maybe my body isn’t set up like a typical woman with PCOS and I won’t have any issues with miscarriage.

I just like to plan ahead for these things so I’m emotionally prepared. I’ve been fairly sure my whole life I won’t be able to have children – or it would be very, very hard to get pregnant. So as much as I’m saddened over this, I’ve dealt with it a while ago. But – if I DO get pregnant and then lose the child, it’s going to be a whole new emotional ballgame.

I’ve been reading all of these horrible stories about miscarriage and I just think about how awful it is for all the women who have been through this. It’s actually fairly common, even for perfectly healthy expecting mothers. Most miscarriages happen in the first 12 weeks, but some happen later. I just worry about getting my hopes up — and also, actually I worry about worrying every day that the fetus might not make it to another day… not to mention reading those horrifying stories about miscarrying at work (I can’t even imagine!) Well, here’s to hoping this cycle is my ticket to pregnancy and I won’t have to experience miscarriage. But, I prepare for the worst… and hope for the best.


One Comment

  1. Fellow cyster here! I just wanted to leave some encouragement and wish you baby dust! As you stated, even women without PCOS can and do suffer miscarriages. Many women with PCOS that do become pregnant also never suffer a miscarriage so I hope that you are one! I suffered a miscarriage with my first pregnancy after 10 years of infertility, which sadly, DID begin at work, but ended at home, thankfully. I was supposed to start fertility treatment the month I found out I was pregnant. How crazy is that?! I went on to become pregnant with my son 5 months later and he’s now almost 4. Several months later we started to try for another baby because I feared we would struggle again and I was right. It took 2 years, but we finally conceived our second son who is now 3 months old.
    And you will never stop worrying, ever. You’ll worry until you’re past the first trimester, then worry until the 20 week Ultrasound, then until you finally give birth. Then an entire new set of worries starts after your baby is here! You’ll worry about feedings, pooping, SIDS, car seat safety, etc, etc, etc. Good times, of course!
    Nothing beats overcoming infertility and having those precious little ones to worry about.
    Best of luck! I hope this is your time the way you feel it is!



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